Jokes on me y’all.
The one guy i did truly loved went behind my back to be with my best friend!
No way.
I mean to be with my best friend for how long?
He watched me cry over this scumbag and watched me relentlessly feel so much hurt.
I went through so must for this!
Yes i admit it took me awhile to feel like myself. Feek that my best friend helped me through so much to only realize the fucking truth.
Told me what i felt wasnt real.
That this wasnt love and how ill never see him again.
Now i know.
You two can be together, because now i know what i felt was just a lie.
Fucking lie after lie after lie.

Bring on the tequila and xanax.
Outara is officially done.

So lets recap my weeks.
Super busy and fun.
I’ve been going out on dates and meeting new guys.
Just I don’t want to look anymore.
Well not stop and give up.
Just stop for a bit to just let go of the past.
I don’t have urges to text you or think of you.
I don’t dream of you anymore.
But when your name is brought up its a little stab.
Or an eye twitch of remembering.
I’m not sad we don’t talk.
Just sad that I’m not the one you go too.
I’m dwindling on the fact that I’m not getting any younger and everyone is settling down.
What am I suppose to do.
I’ll find the right nitch when it’s time.
Just waiting around for another person is so tiring.
I’ll sleep for a bit until I remember again.

Sorry I don’t come on here anymore.
Just I don’t want to miss life at the moment.
But just know I’m really happy.
Not the way it use to be but there’s so much more to me.
Catch me in Colorado.

why can’t I fall in love and knit, the man I love, a sweater?

okay drowning in my projects now.

gbye social life until this week ends.

excited for the school year to end.

GIDDY that this weekend will be the best.

Scared for the summer.

I have no place to stay and i am not trooping it back to RHODE ISLAND.

life sometimes

::SIGH::

::snaps::
You’re basic.
This week needs to get locked in a closet and be forgotten.
I hate life and one thing I hate more than life is complaining about it.
So that means I need to just go to bed.
Gbye

::sigh:: I wish I could sleep all day but still maintain a social night life in the city.